Several weeks ago Sybella was invited to attend a meeting, a flight away, in another kingdom to discuss the ideas of her writing. Perhaps, one of the most important meetings in her life! Or at least in "her own" life in Thisworld.
For years she has put the needs of Her King, and the little feet above any need of her own. It was never a problem to place them above herself and watch as they each take part in the spirits of their own dreams and accomplishments. Never asking that any spotlight be given to her hearts desire. Not much expecting to be more then the wife of Her King or the mother of the little feet.
When invited to attend the meeting, a flight away, Her King decided it would be in his best interest to accompany her on this major trip. It was also decided that the prince and princess be brought along and taken for a visit to see TinkerBell. A Tinker Fairy most children recognize and adore. Considering that she lives but a few miles from the meeting place Sybella has been invited to it all seemed so logical at the time the plans were made.
This morning it seemed less logical to Sybella as she rushed around making certain everyone packed the things they would need during their visit to the Magical Kingdom. She noticed herself distracted over the issues of shoes and socks, hats and hair bows, and the wants and wishes of the people she has cared for with complete dedication. She noticed that her own needs appeared less important to anyone else. She noticed that the reason for the flight had been overshadowed by the excitement and wants of her family.
Sybella, did not allow this to dampen her spirit and has made sure to direct her attention to the truth of the trip for herself. As the hours approach for the time of the flight she is excited and nervous and above all else she is ready.
Confidence and support for this big adventure having been reinforced by the loving words sent her way from her ChooseWell as usual seemed to be more then enough to carry her through the ritual of planning and packing. She was ready to meet the important people, having been reminded during the past days of the fact that her own dreams in life matter. Having one person who remembered what this flight was about and that it was possibly the most important trip of her lifetime.
Sybella is ready and able standing in confidence built up and based on the words from the one who truly does love her. As this post is made, her family is ready for their own fun, she is ready for her adventure.
They will return in a few days, less than a week--Sybella has waited for this meeting since her childhood and will soon know if she has passed the test of being considered a master of the craft of words... It could happen at no better time with the waxing crescent moon and returning in time to celebrate Beltaine!
April 26, 2009
April 22, 2009
Her King Speaks
After the several weeks, and exchange of messages between Sybella and Kinght ChooseWell, she had finally found a balance from the emotional impact of it all. She had finally settled down and was starting to think more clearly. She had finally found peace with the idea that forever would not be too long to wait if there would ever be a day where she and he were free to love each other again.
Sybella, had made good use of the waining moon, had let go of the barrage of mixed feelings that had built during the waxing moon. She was feeling more herself and a peace with the fact that her love for ChooseWell would need to remain on the page of the messages they exchanged. And, satisfied that without the full right to love each other the messages would be enough for her.
Her feet were solid on the ground. Her thinking less up and down. Her attention returned to the details of the Now. It was enough to share the secret writing love affair with her ChooseWell. While unsure of the right or wrong of it, in her mind and heart she was still the faithful wife of Her King. She had done nothing physically to violate this fact. And, because Her King was a good man, she intended for it to remain a fact.
Sybella knew Her King needed her and loved her in the way he knew how. And, she was finally at peace with the idea that at least until the little feet of the princess and the prince had become able adults she would remain the faithful wife of Her King. He seemed happy with her, depended on her and would never survive the duty's of parenting the little feet without her.
She knew that while he was not able to ever give her the love or touch she had with ChooseWell, that at least she had the words from the one who did know how to love her. She would do her best to be happy with this double-life sort of thing. Her King with the responsibility of the day in and out of life...Her ChooseWell there with the words that gave chill to her neck for the sensitivity of understanding her like no other ever had or will.
For what she needed most was not simply the passion of lust but, much deeper then that. It had been born of friendship in the first place and grew with the passion of words they wrote together and the poetry of life they each seemed to see with the same eye and heart. Sybella had even been with him in the first place because of his passion for words and those words he had whispered in her ear during his rescue of her from the hands of the EvilOne.
What Sybella had not expected on this day was to hear the words of Her King. The man whom had said few during their 9 years together. The man who showed his love with gifts and money rather then attention and passion. Sybella had never in all of these weeks, or even the years they had shared detected that Her Kind had ever in anyway been displeased with her.
Had he sensed that she was carried away with thoughts of love and need for intimacy before he dropped boom on her? Had he noticed a change in her tone or attitude since she had made contact with ChooseWell? It was difficult to conclude by the words Her King offered tonight. Words spoken in loud voice with anger. Words she had never even suspected would be spoken to her and in such a way.
It did not seem possible he was feeling threat from an outsider. And, in thinking about the angry words spoken it was clear the matter had nothing to do with the relationship she shared with Her King and everything to to with Her as a Mother. He had waited months to address the root of his anger but, when he did so it was with violent air and hard voice the very things Sybella can face least.
The one thing Sybella had always made clear was that anger and loud voice were cause for her to run away as fast as possible. She had lived with these things in her childhood and even more with the EvilOne who held her captive for nearly 15 years. Even while courting when once Her King had raised voice in anger at some other person--Sybella ran from him fast as just the sound of it sends her to panic.
Why would Her King keep a criticism secret from her so long it boiled to hot words and was delivered with the shrill sound of the tea kettle whistle? Why would he have hidden his opinion of her as a mother for so long that he boiled without cause?
And, was continuing to walk in Thisworld and love in another even made possible because Her King had lacked passion for her. Did his lack of care for her make his heart ground for tilling judgement and scoring even for a problem he kept to himself?
Sybella, again found herself flooded with emotion and hurt. Had Her King respected her so little that he would not have spoken of his concerns for months and years only to stab her with it the moment there was something in the air happy with her? Why was this brought to her attention so late in the work of parenting the little feet? If he had cared and loved them all, would he have not wanted to address these concerns when they took place--rather then spend months and years keeping a tally of her failures?
Sybella, had made good use of the waining moon, had let go of the barrage of mixed feelings that had built during the waxing moon. She was feeling more herself and a peace with the fact that her love for ChooseWell would need to remain on the page of the messages they exchanged. And, satisfied that without the full right to love each other the messages would be enough for her.
Her feet were solid on the ground. Her thinking less up and down. Her attention returned to the details of the Now. It was enough to share the secret writing love affair with her ChooseWell. While unsure of the right or wrong of it, in her mind and heart she was still the faithful wife of Her King. She had done nothing physically to violate this fact. And, because Her King was a good man, she intended for it to remain a fact.
Sybella knew Her King needed her and loved her in the way he knew how. And, she was finally at peace with the idea that at least until the little feet of the princess and the prince had become able adults she would remain the faithful wife of Her King. He seemed happy with her, depended on her and would never survive the duty's of parenting the little feet without her.
She knew that while he was not able to ever give her the love or touch she had with ChooseWell, that at least she had the words from the one who did know how to love her. She would do her best to be happy with this double-life sort of thing. Her King with the responsibility of the day in and out of life...Her ChooseWell there with the words that gave chill to her neck for the sensitivity of understanding her like no other ever had or will.
For what she needed most was not simply the passion of lust but, much deeper then that. It had been born of friendship in the first place and grew with the passion of words they wrote together and the poetry of life they each seemed to see with the same eye and heart. Sybella had even been with him in the first place because of his passion for words and those words he had whispered in her ear during his rescue of her from the hands of the EvilOne.
What Sybella had not expected on this day was to hear the words of Her King. The man whom had said few during their 9 years together. The man who showed his love with gifts and money rather then attention and passion. Sybella had never in all of these weeks, or even the years they had shared detected that Her Kind had ever in anyway been displeased with her.
Had he sensed that she was carried away with thoughts of love and need for intimacy before he dropped boom on her? Had he noticed a change in her tone or attitude since she had made contact with ChooseWell? It was difficult to conclude by the words Her King offered tonight. Words spoken in loud voice with anger. Words she had never even suspected would be spoken to her and in such a way.
It did not seem possible he was feeling threat from an outsider. And, in thinking about the angry words spoken it was clear the matter had nothing to do with the relationship she shared with Her King and everything to to with Her as a Mother. He had waited months to address the root of his anger but, when he did so it was with violent air and hard voice the very things Sybella can face least.
The one thing Sybella had always made clear was that anger and loud voice were cause for her to run away as fast as possible. She had lived with these things in her childhood and even more with the EvilOne who held her captive for nearly 15 years. Even while courting when once Her King had raised voice in anger at some other person--Sybella ran from him fast as just the sound of it sends her to panic.
Why would Her King keep a criticism secret from her so long it boiled to hot words and was delivered with the shrill sound of the tea kettle whistle? Why would he have hidden his opinion of her as a mother for so long that he boiled without cause?
And, was continuing to walk in Thisworld and love in another even made possible because Her King had lacked passion for her. Did his lack of care for her make his heart ground for tilling judgement and scoring even for a problem he kept to himself?
Sybella, again found herself flooded with emotion and hurt. Had Her King respected her so little that he would not have spoken of his concerns for months and years only to stab her with it the moment there was something in the air happy with her? Why was this brought to her attention so late in the work of parenting the little feet? If he had cared and loved them all, would he have not wanted to address these concerns when they took place--rather then spend months and years keeping a tally of her failures?
Earth Day 2009
April 22, 2009~~~
Today is Earth Day, and Sybella has taken part in this day since she was in grade school. The first Earth Day was April 22, 1970 and as a young child living in southern California could not have been living in a more polluted place. Some of her most vivid memories were the hot summer days and the Smog Alerts that prevented play or meant that play would end that night with painful breathing due to smog damaged lungs.
When Earth Day started she was right there as one of the most inspired and willing to work children and nothing has changed about that in 39 years!
Today, as an adult when she returns to California on visits her observations are that there has been a reduction in the smog and that most younger people don't recall the scare of helicopters flying over their homes with megaphones telling them to go inside their home and breath through a wet wash cloth! While California will always have the lovely haze in the Los Angeles basin--Sybella, can notice the haze is not nearly as brown as her childhood. Progress has been made and that's something to be hopeful about.
On this earth day, Sybella is planting 3 trees in the yards of the elderly neighbors and has donated 3 cases of energy efficient light bulbs to the local food bank asking that they be included with the boxes they distribute to the needy citizens of the kingdom. Logic tells Sybella those families in need of help with food are more likely to not be able to purchase the higher cost light bulbs so sending them with the food boxes seems a good way to contribute where the need is the greatest.
Tonight the family will celebrate Earth Day by eating our supper of food given to us from the earth and by sharing our ideas to become even more diligent with our efforts to do our part where we can to take care of our earth.
If you want to know more about Earth Day 2009 Sybella suggests you Click Here.
Today is Earth Day, and Sybella has taken part in this day since she was in grade school. The first Earth Day was April 22, 1970 and as a young child living in southern California could not have been living in a more polluted place. Some of her most vivid memories were the hot summer days and the Smog Alerts that prevented play or meant that play would end that night with painful breathing due to smog damaged lungs.
When Earth Day started she was right there as one of the most inspired and willing to work children and nothing has changed about that in 39 years!
Today, as an adult when she returns to California on visits her observations are that there has been a reduction in the smog and that most younger people don't recall the scare of helicopters flying over their homes with megaphones telling them to go inside their home and breath through a wet wash cloth! While California will always have the lovely haze in the Los Angeles basin--Sybella, can notice the haze is not nearly as brown as her childhood. Progress has been made and that's something to be hopeful about.
On this earth day, Sybella is planting 3 trees in the yards of the elderly neighbors and has donated 3 cases of energy efficient light bulbs to the local food bank asking that they be included with the boxes they distribute to the needy citizens of the kingdom. Logic tells Sybella those families in need of help with food are more likely to not be able to purchase the higher cost light bulbs so sending them with the food boxes seems a good way to contribute where the need is the greatest.
Tonight the family will celebrate Earth Day by eating our supper of food given to us from the earth and by sharing our ideas to become even more diligent with our efforts to do our part where we can to take care of our earth.
If you want to know more about Earth Day 2009 Sybella suggests you Click Here.
April 21, 2009
Au Gratin Potatoes
One of Sybella's favorite recipes for potatoes is the basic Au Gratin method. Perhaps because this recipe can be dressed Up or served in it's most simple form and still taste wonderful. I can also be made more or less rich.Basic Au Gratin Potatoes
10-15 Potatoes--pealed and sliced thin, be sure to rinse the sliced potatoes very well.
1/2 Cups diced Onions
1/4 Chopped fresh parsley
1/4 to 1/2 Cups Butter (or such)--Sliced into wedges
1/4 to 1/2 Cup Flour
Several Pinches of Salt and Pepper.
Milk
These ingredients are to be layered into a baking dish. Start with a few of the butter slices and then pile on the potato slices--the goal is to create 3-4 layers. Sprinkle some Onions, parsley and a pinch of the salt and pepper on top of the potatoes. Then dust everything with the flour. Continue making layers until everything is in the pan. Pour Milk over the whole dish until the potatoes are covered and soaking in the milk.
Bake in 350 degree oven until the potatoes have soaked in all the milk and the top browns.
To Spice it Up
Just about anything can be added:
Cheese
Ham
Bacon
Chicken and,
Mushrooms are all some of Sybella's favorites.
This recipe may also be made with Cream, or canned milk.
April 20, 2009
The Castle Kitchen
Sybella enjoys growing her garden for more then the simple joy it is to be outdoors. When it comes to growing the plants that will be served for feasts and meals she takes even more joy because in the end she will be the one to prepare the food her plants create.
During the difficult economic times int the kingdom it's wise for people to learn the way things were done in the past--before the new traditions replaced the old. It's probably why there are these kinds of times!
In Thisworld it is very easy to become dependent on easy cook meals, restaurants and microwave ovens to provide our families with nutrition. The poor economy may just be what is needed to inspire more people to plant a garden or dig out the old recipe box and start actually cooking!
Think of all the lost memories of our mother's and grandmother's if the special dishes they were known for...don't come frozen in a box? Sybella has always enjoyed witnessing the people she loves and cares about enjoy the results of her garden and the way she cooks. And she has always enjoyed the recipes left behind in her Greatness Gram's box.
As board as Sybella has been with the day out and day in of it... she thought perhaps there might be a way to share Greatness Gram's recipes with the citizens in the kingdom who may not have such a box of their own.
She decided to submit some of her great grandmothers recipes to the editor of the weekly paper just as her great grandmother had nearly a hundred years ago! Well, actually it was only 85 years ago but may as well have been a hundred! To her surprise and delight she was offered a weekly column in the paper and the editor asked if she would like to call it "The Castle Kitchen"
Sybella, being a crafter of words, would never pass chance to be published, paid or not! She would have a byline and for some writers the byline is all that matters!
Of course, in reality Sybella started out wanting to help the people in her kingdom learn to grow and prepare food, and share her great grandmothers Magic with them. It was just the added blessing of the byline that caused Sybella to be satisfied with the handing down of traditions many in Thisworld have not learned or have forgotten.
Today, she has been busy planning and gathering the supplies she needs to create a wonderful weekly column in the newspaper--sharing grams magic. Her first deadline is tonight!
During the difficult economic times int the kingdom it's wise for people to learn the way things were done in the past--before the new traditions replaced the old. It's probably why there are these kinds of times!
In Thisworld it is very easy to become dependent on easy cook meals, restaurants and microwave ovens to provide our families with nutrition. The poor economy may just be what is needed to inspire more people to plant a garden or dig out the old recipe box and start actually cooking!
Think of all the lost memories of our mother's and grandmother's if the special dishes they were known for...don't come frozen in a box? Sybella has always enjoyed witnessing the people she loves and cares about enjoy the results of her garden and the way she cooks. And she has always enjoyed the recipes left behind in her Greatness Gram's box.
As board as Sybella has been with the day out and day in of it... she thought perhaps there might be a way to share Greatness Gram's recipes with the citizens in the kingdom who may not have such a box of their own.
She decided to submit some of her great grandmothers recipes to the editor of the weekly paper just as her great grandmother had nearly a hundred years ago! Well, actually it was only 85 years ago but may as well have been a hundred! To her surprise and delight she was offered a weekly column in the paper and the editor asked if she would like to call it "The Castle Kitchen"
Sybella, being a crafter of words, would never pass chance to be published, paid or not! She would have a byline and for some writers the byline is all that matters!
Of course, in reality Sybella started out wanting to help the people in her kingdom learn to grow and prepare food, and share her great grandmothers Magic with them. It was just the added blessing of the byline that caused Sybella to be satisfied with the handing down of traditions many in Thisworld have not learned or have forgotten.
Today, she has been busy planning and gathering the supplies she needs to create a wonderful weekly column in the newspaper--sharing grams magic. Her first deadline is tonight!
Her own Spring Rain
Monday, April 20, 2009 ~~~
This spring morning broke bright filled with the light of a new day. Yet, Sybella woke slowly still wanting to remain in her dreams. Knowing that to walk through another day would bring with it the mix of joy, sorrow of the past, and reality of the fact she was the wife of Her King.
Knight ChooseWell and Sybella's exchange of words had revealed not only had he beaten the Dragon, but that he had thought of Sybella the whole time, as she had thought of ChooseWell every moment since he left for the battle.
Sybella's messages started out guarded and appropriate for the wife of Her King. She informed ChooseWell that her life was - different now. That she was the wife or Her King and that he was a good king, had not once hurt her, and was an honorable man. Sybella let ChooseWell know that she and Her King had adopted children from the kingdom and that her obligations to her adopted children were as all important as to the children he knew born to her as the wife of the EvilOne.
Sybella's messages also could not help but express her pain for the loss of him. She had never stopped looking out the windows to see if she might spot him walking without knowing due to the effects of the dragon smoke...that she had looked for him to be made a Hero by beating the ugly dragon and living the life of a hero today. That not a day had passed she had not thought of him.
Sybella asked how many years he was at war with the dragon? How long had he suffered the mind altering effects of the dragon smoke?
ChooseWell had answered, and his answer is reason this beautiful spring day filled with sunshine was like the most cold and dark winter morning.
Sybella, learned that ChooseWell had not returned to her because he thought his battle with the dragon had turned her love for him to hate. That he did not return because he believed he had lost Sybella. ChooseWell wrote to Sybella that he did not think he was welcome to return to her.
Knowing this was cause for rain today and Sybella only has her own tears to cause clouds.
Knight ChooseWell and Sybella's exchange of words had revealed not only had he beaten the Dragon, but that he had thought of Sybella the whole time, as she had thought of ChooseWell every moment since he left for the battle.
Sybella's messages started out guarded and appropriate for the wife of Her King. She informed ChooseWell that her life was - different now. That she was the wife or Her King and that he was a good king, had not once hurt her, and was an honorable man. Sybella let ChooseWell know that she and Her King had adopted children from the kingdom and that her obligations to her adopted children were as all important as to the children he knew born to her as the wife of the EvilOne.
Sybella's messages also could not help but express her pain for the loss of him. She had never stopped looking out the windows to see if she might spot him walking without knowing due to the effects of the dragon smoke...that she had looked for him to be made a Hero by beating the ugly dragon and living the life of a hero today. That not a day had passed she had not thought of him.
Sybella asked how many years he was at war with the dragon? How long had he suffered the mind altering effects of the dragon smoke?
ChooseWell had answered, and his answer is reason this beautiful spring day filled with sunshine was like the most cold and dark winter morning.
Sybella, learned that ChooseWell had not returned to her because he thought his battle with the dragon had turned her love for him to hate. That he did not return because he believed he had lost Sybella. ChooseWell wrote to Sybella that he did not think he was welcome to return to her.
Knowing this was cause for rain today and Sybella only has her own tears to cause clouds.
A long, busy weekend and understanding for Sybella
She had not expected it a month ago. She had not thought her Knight ChooseWell survived the fight with the dragon. The years their fingertips touched before separated was nearly twelve years past. Her life was perfect as far as she could tell.
Her life was what any woman would want...as far as she could tell.
Until, she heard from her ChooseWell, and since she had now, her life will never be the same.
Since finding one another Sybella and ChooseWell have yet to see each other--they have not even heard the voice of the other in all of these many years. They did not bump into each other on the streets or in the market. ChooseWell, searched for Sybella...and she was informed of his search. For whatever reason the wife of a King would have--Sybella responded to her Knights Search and accepted his messages.
At the moment Sybella, felt strong and satisfied in the way she had literally Picked Her King and Got him. Any woman with that kind of magic should be strong enough to be happy when she got what she wanted. At the moment, she didn't even realize what she had done.
Sybella, responded unaware that when she did so, she would become aware and understand far more then she expected. She did not know what she did not know and not knowing became a spiritual and emotional journey she never imagined.
It took but, only a few exchanges of words, one to the other, before Sybella realized the profound implications of the situation. It was for but a few words from ChooseWell that she stood face to surrender to the one truth she had never denied...
It was just that it was in the words from her Knight that caused Sybella to crash right into the fact that she and he were absolutely part of the same bolt of lightning.
It did not appear to matter their eyes had not touched--or their voices not yet greeted one another after the years seperated. It was that the kind of love Sybella and ChooseWell had know was the kind only known by the poets of it.
By mere exchange of their words--ChooseWell and Sybella had always been poetry together. Within the exchange of but a few letters their poetry picked up right where it had stopped when ChooseWell had left her to fight his dragon.
Not exactly, where Sybella, the wife of Her King had ever much expected to find herself, especially with no advance notice.
With the whirl-wind of it all, it appears Sybella is making sense of it all now. And apparently ready to take her steps toward the next bend in her path.
Her life was what any woman would want...as far as she could tell.
Until, she heard from her ChooseWell, and since she had now, her life will never be the same.
Since finding one another Sybella and ChooseWell have yet to see each other--they have not even heard the voice of the other in all of these many years. They did not bump into each other on the streets or in the market. ChooseWell, searched for Sybella...and she was informed of his search. For whatever reason the wife of a King would have--Sybella responded to her Knights Search and accepted his messages.
At the moment Sybella, felt strong and satisfied in the way she had literally Picked Her King and Got him. Any woman with that kind of magic should be strong enough to be happy when she got what she wanted. At the moment, she didn't even realize what she had done.
Sybella, responded unaware that when she did so, she would become aware and understand far more then she expected. She did not know what she did not know and not knowing became a spiritual and emotional journey she never imagined.
It took but, only a few exchanges of words, one to the other, before Sybella realized the profound implications of the situation. It was for but a few words from ChooseWell that she stood face to surrender to the one truth she had never denied...
It was just that it was in the words from her Knight that caused Sybella to crash right into the fact that she and he were absolutely part of the same bolt of lightning.
It did not appear to matter their eyes had not touched--or their voices not yet greeted one another after the years seperated. It was that the kind of love Sybella and ChooseWell had know was the kind only known by the poets of it.
By mere exchange of their words--ChooseWell and Sybella had always been poetry together. Within the exchange of but a few letters their poetry picked up right where it had stopped when ChooseWell had left her to fight his dragon.
Not exactly, where Sybella, the wife of Her King had ever much expected to find herself, especially with no advance notice.
With the whirl-wind of it all, it appears Sybella is making sense of it all now. And apparently ready to take her steps toward the next bend in her path.
April 17, 2009
Sybella's Friday Flight ~ Journey to the Capital
Today Sybella went to see the Senator of the people in her Kingdom. It was a beautiful day. Started with the mist and ending with the sun.
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